The Clammoring Masses

All right all right enough allready - everyone has been after me to start up a blog - so that they can hear about what I had for breakfast and hear my perspectives about current events and the trashy tv shows I occasionally watch So here it is, my blog.
Ok so the truth is - I visit other blogs and wistfully feel like I need my own. It's a little hard to know where to start .. I'm not sure what i want my blog to be about or who I want to read it. I almost feel like - the more people I tell about my blog, the more limited I am about what i might want to share.
So tonight I am thinking about my daughter. She's so sweet and so charming and I feel so lucky to have her, yet on a day to day basis she certainly drives me nuts multiple times over. It's hard sometimes to be patient, and hard to know what to behaviors to let go - and which to be stern about. Sometimes it's my fault ... I leave too much til the last minute and then we're rushing to get out the door and I get frusterated and snap at her when she doesn't listen. Sometimes I remind myself of *my* mother, and not of the times she was at her best.
I'm feeling a little melancholy today - and yesterday and maybe the day before too and a little anxious. I think it's just PMS, and I'm hoping I'll feel more cheerful soon. It's always in the back of my head that my daughter's health isn't something I can take for granted - and that at any time we might end up back at the hospital again. Usually it's way way at the back and I barely think about it, often I am blindly optimisitic about it. Then when I have moods like this I wonder - Should I be this optimistic - after all she's doing great right now and she hasn't has any *serious* issues now for a year and a half - OR am I wrong to feel so optimistic - am I really just kidding myself? I worry - will I next year or the year before be thinking back to this time - wishing to go back and make the most of every single moment.
It's hard to know what my perspective should be.